i blog only because it makes sense to speak what you feel.anyways i dont care much.for sure,i am not wasting even a second when i write and even if i do i cant find a better way to spend my idol moments.why the heck do i have to clarify,its a diary,a personal diary,like a diary.

india is writhing ..

A year ago a seemingly unstoppable global juggernaut, the once-confident India is now reeling from a perfect storm of a corporate IT scandal, the Mumbai attacks and economic slowdown.
Suddenly the talk is not of easy returns, unending high growth, or "India arrives". The chatter is increasingly of risk.
All these events have added to a sense of more risk in India.There is a squirrel attitude. The winter could be long and cold.
Satyam Computer Chairman Ramalinga Raju quit on Wednesday in India's biggest corporate scandal in memory, after revealing profits had been falsely inflated for years. It has been called India's "Enron", raising suspicion there could be other skeletons in the closet of India's corporate boom.It all came at the wrong moment for India, a combination of problems that punched a hole in the self-confidence -- some say cockiness -- of executives, politicians and middle-classes.
Only in 2007, India wallowed in success. Tata Steel made a $13 billion bid for Corus, the country's biggest foreign buy. A trillion-dollar economy grew at nearly 9 percent. India won its first major international cricket cup in 25 years.i am too bullish about India in the long term.
But these new insecurities may impact on the economy, where there are signs investors are reeling back from ambitious plans, to politics, where growing insecurity among voters could add to the unpredictability of general elections due by early May.
Take politics. The Congress-led coalition government is battling the Hindu nationalist Bharatiya Janata Party. The insecurity bodes badly for Congress in its hopes to retain power.
But that insecurity could push voters to a "third front", smaller regional parties with charismatic but controversial leaders - like "Queen of Dalits" Mayawati - that send shivers down many investors.
Anyone in power in India has to be worried because Indians walk on very thin ice.There is no social security, job security. A third force may be able to take advantage of this insecurity.The decision of Tata Motors to pull out of West Bengal state in October after farmer protests against a factory for its low cost Nano, billed the world's cheapest car, also shocked India.
For all of India's optimism, it was a reminder that the country of sprouting shopping malls still must deal with the more than two-thirds of Indians who live on less than a dollar a day.

real nuts..

a friend is one who knows me and loves me the same.ohhhoo..so i am cast away.i was talking with this friend,as we think of each other.she begun the hot shot interaction pointing at my dress contrast and i was so furious that i lead it to porno :).she was furious too and as usual sobriqueted me to be the biggest idiot ever born.but cute.why is it that most of the pretty sexy girls like chocolate flavours and the good one's mostly vanillla or strawberry.i dont care about why dont i manage to look as funny as the actors of contemporary cinema,one thing is assured,dare you dress in cinema style,everyone is gonna stare at you and laugh then.comeon babes,there is a difference between us and them.anyways i thought on something,as little as i could gather from that hot shot conversation.i am gonna work out because may be the female awaiting me be having a demand of rigid six or 8 or 16 pack,hehehe.most of them seems to be wanting that,dont worry folks,i shall oblige.why,did i not have them now,how many of you have checked,better check it out... :) :)

new year begins ..

when it began my phone lost its network.15 minutes later i got it back,and then calls were only coming,they were not going.jan 1st is maa's birthday and she called up assuming that i had forgotten :(.but she is the best mom one could ask for.:).i wish everything,every part of my life,every action of me,every achievement i make brings smile to her.i can do anything for my sweetest mom.
now,on jan 1st i was in chennai.i was at adyar.

of the 25th & the 29th.

does pakistan support no first use of nuclear weapon,that country is an absolutely insane place because of their people.early in morning,in the TOI,i noticed a pic where PAKISTANIS were holding a banner with the message,'use nuclear weapon'.thats what you call insane,isnt it.brainless,preternatural people forming a senseless nation.why dont we attack them,we,the india.not to mention,attack and capture.kill the so called bloody jehadis and welcome the rest like we always have done.its crazy i know but thats how it is.situation is critical and a bunch of mad men have their finger tip over a nuclear button.i wish i had studied nuclear engg with interest,might be if the enthu had been same as its now,an anti nuclear was possible.my heartiest best luck and loads of wishes to all working on anti nuclear weapon.
yesterday was christmas and as usual,celebrations were superb.these people,christians rock man,i mean,specifically on 25th's every year.we rock too,on deepawali.
29th is another special day.birthday of one of the best girls i have known,apparently though.but i believe i have never missed anything as much as i have thought of her.happy birthday angel.may god bless you.and may you get all you want.i wish i could wish you but i know i cant and i wont.
oh god,this is where blogging helps.the power to talk.at times,to talk to yourself.

G-spot

i hardly do have the guts to understand the global economy and its implications.g-spot is the epi-centre of global economy.having spent as many as thousand days of interest in the financial look all over,i actually feel blown away with the situation that has prevailed for more than half an year,almost.
g-spot is interesting,in both the cases-very much in the way it varies from woman to woman and much so in the current scenario,of turmoil and absolute economic collapse.if they could be correlated,they easily could be.a particular spot of impact,sensation,effect and action is what g-spot is,in women.so is it here,how i mean.the american trouble engulfed the world so viciously while the economists in europe,asia,india behaved like stupids.so much that indian gdp was expected to grow at 13%(approx) and this was formally announced hardly a couple of weeks before the crisis gripped and then later swallowed the indian market.what's the mistake and where is it ? one word could be- THE NEW YORK.mumbai,london,moscow,paris,tokyo stood wide eyed and the storm arrives,they blink and the damage is incurred.if i was a leader of any nation,this happening,would shame me-mostly because of the lack of insulation and a cabinet-cover.india gets used by america and takes pride in it,exception being the 123,that too,only arguably.

the number 1 dad

its my papa's (father's) birthday and i feel great.he is as dynamic,efficient and charismatic as ever.i wish god to give him and maa(mom) everything in their life.every joy.they both are the champions,together they make an epitome of togetherness as blue is to sky.i love them both more than my life.i believ so do my sisters,angel,and another angel.happy birthday papa.miss you so much.

thoughts..

a cloud of moral hobgoblins has already terrified me and sadly without much of reason,tilting itself towards a higher degree of anticipation,which ofcourse is more of a disquietude.now someone points out that the word i use most often is INDEED..haha..but it is not,in no way.domicile is something that always pulls me up,it could well be stretched upto a tune of saregamapa and thats why i behave like a jester and end it up with a sorry everyone apology.did anyone ever notice how actors stammer,bloody fools,except a few i categorise them all in that elite group of A class fools,of which i am not a member ofcourse.exceptions would be tom hanks,will smith,keri russell and few others(fav's of all who read this one) :).hei i am not a cipher,you bet a thousand pounds and you win,i promise.indeed,i am not.when i was born,on a tuesday in the afternoon i knew that this is my life.anyways,i never prayed with such tight hands,but i do today because i know somethings are important.oh forget it,its my life,boring as it seems to me,adventurous for others.i hope december remains as good as november.i hope NTU accepts the presentation.i hope CAT is belled nicely.i hope dad gets the happiest years of his life and infinity of them.i wish his birthday brings a billion cheers to him,anyways he is always cheerful.oh,he comes to mind and i underestimate everything else,and why should i not,he obviously is the best guy i have witnessed,speaking in terms of wholeness of life.chill.ciao soon.:).

16th nov

a lot of prehension,lot of.i just cannot say a word,my fingers are crossed,havent checked my answers and am too happy waiting and waiting..in the mean time,toefl date has arrived and thats why i fly.now,no tangential anecdotes at all,atleast not here,my most beloved friend and trustworthy too,the blogspot,is watching :-# (half happy and half mad).last thing i could try was to adduce with historic and silly arguments,excuses are such losers when affronted against men like bapu and the pitara,hahaha,lol.indeed,truth is i never tried understanding the dream's portent and monition.having been wait-listed on a flight is being exceptionally unlucky and here i am,an exception.there was a girl at a distance of 50 yards looking so damn cute that i still cannot forget her lips curving to a smile and the way she stomped the floor in disgust..while i was playing a silly game on my old fashioned phone,she was most of the times looking at the strangers and studying them,as if an agent of cia or a fbi.i was supposedly to be ensconced in the same premises till 5:30 a.m. yesterday.

anyways,bottomline is how was 16th november.this is one question coming back from everyone.even i dont know how it was.but as an answer it would look ridiculous,so i would say,just fine.all i am sure of is that i verbal section was easy,could logically arrive at probably the correct answers for a dozen of questions in quants.i was attempting DI in the last and had run short of time after attempting fourteen questions and a quarter of the fifteenth.anyways,right now what rocks me is the thrill of doing something i have never done before,never even thought of.anyways i dont care because its not at all something i would ever want to do a second time but still-being a rare chance and coming out of the blue,i respect it.it could may be find me a space in the news dailies.oh,thats why,i dont care.big deal.huh.

november-a testing month.

priya singh,sony and sgarika mukherji-all have one thing in common.they are all too innocent to admit the person they like despite the fact that this particular guy wants nothing more than friendship-sort of a hello and hi.he is not a greek god of love and neither a flirt by nature,its just a part of his destiny.now,having tried my best to concentrate on the event scheduled for november 16th,i do admit having worked a lot of sums and to have known about a thousand brand new english words(to me).this apart,exams have already started and number of subjects to be studied is eleven.thats not a big deal,more because i have made my mind to focus not on the semester exams but still do a bit enough so as to atleast secure something around decent.

another festival,very important for the people of the place i belong to,Chath,is coming.whole family is leaving for our village in bihar,except me.they would pray to the sun god like they have been doing for past six years or so.chath is the finale after a long festive season in october with durga puja,deepawali celebrated with great pomp and splendor.i would also pray from here,2000 miles away, for a happy life of everyone who loves me specially my dearest mom and dad.
quite often,i have thought of my past all these days and i feel life is good anyways.it mostly depends on how we take it.people tend to take you for granted only when you start loving them more than they can ever think.
today i had an exam,a lab and after knowing my marks in viva-voce was more than satisfied(18/20).didnt study much but questions were more from the concepts we were taught in the previous years.they say over all grade depends on this particular part of the exam called viva voce.so yeah,i do expect a top grade and positively so.a lot to come in near time.i am hoping for the best and keeping my fingers crossed.let's see.