THE YEAR IS GONNA BE MINE.

WELL,ITS 4:30 IN THE MORNING,AS I NOTICE MY CAPS LOCK TO BE ON AND DECIDE TO LET IT BE,RAREST OF THOUGHTS AND THE MOST UNIQUE,MOSTLY ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS STIR MY CALM HEAD AND ONCE AGAIN,MAKES ME BELIEVE HOW LONELY EVERYONE IS,NO MATTER HOW MANY PEOPLE KNOW YOU.INSTANTLY I HAVE DECIDED TO TURN MY TABLE LAMP ON AND BURN A STICK FILLED WITH A SUBSTANCE WHICH LATER TURNS INTO WHITE ASH AND PUT IT IN MY LIPS.THE FEEL OF MY DEAR FRIEND IS NO DOUBT,WORTH FEELING, BUT THE THOUGHT OF LOSING HEALTH AND THUS LOSING PRECIOUS YEARS AND HENCE SOME LOVELY MOMENTS AHEAD DOES TIE ME BACK.

THESE APART,I WAS ANNOYED,ANGRY AND ASHAMED OF THE COMMUNITY OF BOYS.THIS GUY,AN IDIOT MAKES A PORN CLIP OF HIS GIRL-FRIEND(MAY BE HE HASN'T) AND NOW,I HEAR,AFTER ABOUT AN YEAR IT IS STARTING TO GET CIRCULATED.WHAT A SHAME,ONE WHO CANT PROTECT HIMSELF SHOULD NOT BE EXPECTED TO DO ANY WONDERS.HAD I SEEN HIM WHEN I SAW THE CLIP,I WOULD HAVE SLAPPED HIM.SOME PEOPLE ARE REAL SHITS.

OH FORGET IT,NOW,AS I AM SUPPOSED TO BE IN HOME ON MY LOVELY DAD AND MOM'S 25TH ANNIVERSARY I CANT WAIT FOR IT TO BE MARCH 9.25TH,AND STILL SO YOUNG,SUCH A SUCCESS,SUCH A TIME OF CELEBRATION,A TIME TO DANCE AND A TIME TO SHOUT,LOVE YOU DAD,LOVE YOU MAA.WOW.

I HAVE TO BECOME AN ENTREPRENEUR AND SO HAVE TO BE IN A GOOD B-SCHOOL,THIS IS SOMETHING WHICH KEEPS ME CONFUSED,ALWAYS.I DONT WANT TO LOSE MY DREAM AS MUCH AS I DONT WANT TO LOSE LIFE.I AM NOT GOING TO TAK ANY JOB,I HAVE DECIDED.I HAVE TO FOLLOW THE WAY WHICH IS SO CLEAR IN MY MIND.THERE SHOULD NOT BE ANYTHING AS A REASON FOR MY NOT ACHIEVING IT OR AS AN EXCUSE FOR NOT DOING THAT WELL.POTENTIALS ARE ONLY SO WHEN THEY ARE USED AND THE USE OF IT BRINGS SMILE OF THE LOST CHILDHOOD.I WANT THAT BACK.I HAVE THE POTENTIAL.

HMMM..ON A PHILOSOPHICAL NOTE,IT IS AS SIMPLE AS A FRACTION OF SECOND.NOTHING COMES BACK,ONCE GONE.NOTHING WOULD GO UNLESS YOU LET IT.OH,DEEP THOUGHTS,HMMM,BUT,THIS YEAR IS GONNA PASS IN A THICK,AM SURE.