chelsea,csk and cute.

this should start with me turning into a football club follower.oh yeah,even though i always had a big crush on the game and always felt like a footballer in those good old days but still never did i ever try to know what the best in this business are upto..and more importantly these guys would come up with discussions containing complete alien stuff.as it seemed to me..and in a coffee shop or a restaurant or any other regular hangout i would just nod my head on every single point and say "oh yeah..fuck man..that was great"..it is funny.but now things are changing because i am a chelsea fan.so,next time when the topic comes i m going to speak all about chelsea and support it with all i have mugged up in a last couple of days :P.few of the important faces and wonderful footballers the team has are frank lampard,anderson luis de souza popular as "deco",ashley cole,michael ballack,john terry,peter cech and many more loved by different people at different times.

this apart,may 22nd was my little cute sis's birthday.even though she was not very happy because of not so good performance in her 12th boards but still she remains the sweetest girl with the cutest dimples :).happy birthday cute.

something is wrong with this 20-20 mode of cricket.teams which were better are out and the ones noone expected are into the finals.yesterday,i really felt pity for the CSK  as they lost in a mach where they were supposed to win.but thats the nature of the game and as a follower of chennai i do feel little upset and i am left with hardly any interest to watch the finals.even then if i was asked to pick my tem out of the two,the deccan chargers and the royal challengers,i will go with the royals.first because,i m more close to bangalore than to hyderabad and also because i find them with relatively few supporters.go bangalore,go.

its a sunday and i have a few things to do.among others,the most important is to go out and have fun :).

election '09 : to,by and for the people,wow !

its better to start with the prominent losers.there was such a sense of relief as me and mom saw the results unfold itself.mom was so damn excited after knowing that both the wife and mother of pappu yadav(arguably a criminal) had lost from supaul and purnea respectively.ram vilas paswan suffered a shock defeat from hajipur,the seat which had returned him triumphant 7 times earlier.lalu prasad yadav lost from pataliputra but won from saran.the good news is he has got a taste of the contemporary era and i just hope he understands that bihar is up for change,change in the form of development and positive agendas.

i was in bangalore with mom,sis and few other people and i had this chance of celebrating the success of election.i was seriously overwhelmed by the results,both of my native state bihar and india as a whole.

i am more than pleased to see congress upsurging in such a crucial time,a time when india needs to be lead,we need a party to balance the principle of india as a secular state,to work in tandem with the beauty india holds,the respect to farmers,boost to entrepreneurship,dissemination of education and few more are among the facts that make congress an obvious choice if i had voted.i would certainly try to vote in the next elections,thats because when i thought about the contributions leadership can make i did feel that embarrassment of supporting and still not participating,of being foolish,dull and over-confident.

now that its all decided and the power of people proved,there are a certain grave concerns the leaders should immediately turn there heads to.the decisive electoral mandate is good for the aam admi,more so taking the battered economy in sight.next,manmohan singh should quickly react to the pak nuclear stock-pile.pakistan is a country of fools and they are always a threat,a small damage to our country is far more precious than the destruction of whole pakistan.u get the point,i hope.oh lord,leave the issue of external securities,this nation of maniacs are such a threat to the beauty of indian daily livelihood,it shall be an achievent forever if upa puts pakistan on its knees forever.that is a little dreamy,though.among certain other basic problems,anaerobic grow of naxalites is yet another matter of concern.the government in its last term has been wuite lazy about this serious pan-indian threat.the bottomline is.india has to emerge into the ranks of the most successful nations and at the same time we have to hold back the secular,socialist,democratic,republic-that india is.

@ me.

the morning spent sleeping and the noon spent sleeping and the evening spent sleeping and the night spent thinking.thinking is something that comes naturally to most people in this greatly evolving world.people tend to think depending on how things are going,in my case its a double headed situation.on one hand,life is quite cool and on the other nothing looks amusing.i have a strange sense of making my own life very complicated at times,now thats what thinking can cause.i think about things which shouldn't matter if you were a dude,but sadly i dont consider myself as one.i am a simple and a normal lad but am a fellow friend of some dudes and that leads me to think like - what the HELL ! i often end up smiling when i force myself to walk through the memories of people who love me beyond everything.there are some in everyone's life who always care,who always want you to be happy and u dont know but they wouldn't even blink in doing anything for you,even dying...responsibility that i hold is to never let any such people down.i am supposed to be performing rather than celebrating your victory.but i was the happiest to know that you had made it happen,only a few can achieve exactly what they want.

as of me,the best way to describe how i feel about you could be the fact that world defies love,love defies death,death defies defiance.

chennai is a mindscape.

i feel pretty good on knowing that the economic crisis has started to wrap up,i feel good because i had reasoned infront of many,many being educated men and women far much older than me,i had argued with a positive sense of perception that i can see april being the breakpoint.obviously,once the world economy ragains full fledged growth,india's recovery will be much faster and steeper than the rest of the world.and by the way,why is it that people always ignore the positive just because some eonomic news is negative.now as a matter of fact,what really makes me write now is a thought which struck my mind while having tea at 5 in the morning..

can development really be justified at the cost of our heritage..as a matter of fact,preserving our heritage is a significant step forward in developing our society,as opposed to developing a particular plot.yet some of india's top municipal authorities seem to think heritage gets in the way of development.to turn chennai into a city with smile,we need to go much beyond the fiscal framework.we,the people,want not just comfortable living and working conditions,but an enriching life in our leisure time,a surfeit of choices,night-life,day-life,options should be open all times.the attraction of a "great" city-new york,sydney,london,paris,san francisco and even new delhi lies in the fact that these choices exist.people dont have to adhere to particular regional languages or ancient customs,these cities are open to all and in everyway.

i would be glad to see chennai turning into he city which defines southern world,i say that,in full knowledge of the fact that this place has the potential-geographically(except climate) as well as economically,to be so. 

mainstream and the muslims.

One of the frequent opinions expressed in India is that ‘Muslims must join the mainstream’. It is seldom explained what ‘mainstream’ is though. Is it undiluted, constantly verifiable patriotism and blind loyalty to India? Hindus in their millions will not pass such a test or else we wouldn’t be having so much negative opinions expressed on India. Or is that one religion is mainstream and not others? If it were ‘common laws’ that will mean ‘mainstream’ , then how many sub sects of Hinduism will agree to join it? So defining what is ‘mainstream’ is riven with problems. 

But there is one mainstream about which no one will have a quarrel. It is ‘education’. As a perennial mainstream it can bear everyone to safe and rational havens. When a dominant rule ends people associated with it, lose their privileges and do become alienated. Anglo-Indians are a case in proof. Muslims too have felt disowned and stranded. They decided the ‘system’ was against them and withdrew into ghettos. It is a measure of India’s success as a democracy that Muslims have now identified ‘education’ as a beneficial mainstream. There is growing evidence for those who will care to look. 

Take Kashmir. You cannot but be struck by the facility with which even nominal graduates from there communicate while those from other states struggle. Kashmir’s educational institutions turn out numerous competent professionals. During the years of strife many Muslim parents sent their children to Bangalore, Pune and other cities so that their education was not impaired. It is another piece of sociology that their experiences in ‘India’ travelled back to Kashmir and convinced everyone where their best interests lay. Kerala of which a quarter are Muslims has the highest educational achievements in India. Again at least three of India’s knowledge companies --Wipro, Cipla and Wockhardt-- are led by highly educated Muslims. Not to mention of course, a certain gentleman named A P J Abdul Kalaam. 

Confirming this trend is a captivating story in the Hindu on Aug 22,2003. Jyoti Punwani writing on ‘Changing face of Pune Schools’ reports on the work of P A Inamdar who has turned the Anglo Urdu High School in Pune into an assembly line of high achievers. This year’s high school topper is Wajeda Karigar --a child of the slums who had to wake up at 4.30am to get some undisturbed peace for her studies. She is the ‘fifth in an unbroken line of Board toppers from the same institution’, of whom four were girls, three of whom wear burquas. They also stood first among all girls in Maharashtra. 

How does Inamdar do it? He urges Muslims to shed their persecution complex. He points out that in India one can overcome all odds as Ambedkar did to vault prejudice, persecution and poverty. He then goes about picking the promising ones and adds them to his Merit List, which then receives special coaching and encouragement. This might seem exlcusivist but remember he is trying to create success stories who will become role models. One of the success girls has persuaded her poor parents to turn down a marriage offer because she wants to graduate in medicine first. 

Inamdar has convinced Muslims that this education mainstream is a fair and equal home for all those arrive at it. He has proof that it is one stream that will merge all Indians: “teachers from RSS-run schools have not only come whenever invited, but have also taught his students diligently.” 

dear AS,

i have wanted to write since april 1st but a preoccupied mind cant work on many things at once.in the chimerical atmosphere of the sea shore here,it seemes to become far from clear where fact ends and fiction begins-or vice versa.i was hachuring,not to indicate the slopes in the shore but to try to figure out what the sea tells about my destiny,was trying to understand the language of nature(alchemist:paulo coelho).i was trying to fight on the behalf of my alter-ego about what really matters:against nescience,against inadvertance,against the supposition that anything is anything else.actually,that would be too much to write or express,much enough to the capability of my english diction for now,so i better leave it.

as it is,i have been spending money as if they were growing on trees and now when i feel poor , i come to the rescue of my best friend,this blog :).well i would like to be very frank,i just miss AS so much that for the last couple of weeks i have been talking to myself imagining her responding.she sill makes sense to me,everything about her is intact in thoughts,every seond,unswerving and absolute.if i had to answer a question,whom do i love the most-i would say:AS.if someone asks what is she? i would say life.and if asked,who is she,i would say love.beyond the impossibilities and the complications,i will love her forever.

now coming to a very interesting dinner we had(me and a friend of mine),it excites me.we had rabbit masala,oh yeah,i ate rabbit and he did too.we went to the ascendas in it highway here and were told that it tastes good,so we ordered and tried it.as a suggestion,i will say never try it:firstly,because rabbits are more beautiful when alive-actually everything is and secondly,they dont taste as good as a chicken does.

i have developed a fascination to come up with strange ideas and i see that all those around never reject any of them.so i am afraid,i might turn a proud guy soon,please interrupt me.will sleep for now,eyes are irritating and even i feel little soporific,perhaps because of the weather now.good night.

random thoughts and fav song.

this is probably the best way i could have described what i fell the most and most of the times.even when life has gifted a lot,there is someone missed so very much-every moment, that i at times realise,if given a chance i could exchange it for my life itself.but to move on,to hope and to work,to dream and to try and achieve makes me smile every time i think of you.you are so very special that even now,after days and days,i can think of the only one who could make me smile and make me cry.once again i want to move on because i know there is someone waiting for me too.i love you forever.:).

MBA-up next.

i guess,i m done with the rest of my anxieties.i feel like advertising all my feelings,its different that folks say,never advertise them because there are no buyers.who cares,i just want to unleash,to let go,to scream,to jump.its a certainty and it has proved it.it is something that reflects trough it and still it prevents the it within it from surfacing on it or even around it.it is me.
shapes are made out of so many given conditions,even more limitations,but which good thing comes like a swift breeze or say a zephyr,obviously none.everything has to be a roller-coaster type,from the beginning to the middle and then the end.it is awesome.it is crazy.it is stereotype.
hoping never to requiem for a lost dream.:).

this much...

someone asked me once,how much i could love someone,and i couldn't reply.but,now i have an answer.i can love this much..and even more.

I love you enough to fight for you,
compromise for you and sacrifice myself for you,if need be.

Enough to miss you incredibly when
we're apart,no matter what length of
time it's for and regardless of the distance.

Enough to believe in our relationship,
to stand by it through the worse
of times,to have faith in our
strength as a couple,and to never
give up on us.

Enough to spend the rest of my life
with you,be there for you when you
need or want me,and never,ever want to leave you or live without you.

I love you this much.

london,is good.:).

now this is how i reached london,from delhi via chennai.the journey has been absolutely awesome.and obviously unbelievable too.

brb..